And I've really been trying my best.
Last week I took the kids swimming at the wave pool, to Midway (like a fun park with games/machines for Harmony and a jungle gym for Avery), to Chapters to buy some books (and so Avery could play Thomas trains), to the mall, and then this week I've taken Avery to playgroup which he absolutely loved.
And I take them to the park a LOT 'cause it's right next to our house so we're there almost every day, sometimes more than once a day.
And I've been enjoying doing things with them too, like reading stories to Avery. I just like being "that kind of Mom", kwim?
But sometimes I think my expectations for myself are too high.
Like yesterday by the end of the day, I was too tired to give Avery a bath, and Paul had to do more with him to get him ready for a bed. And I felt like such a crappy parent. :(
I think my problem yesterday was partly because I helped out my sister-in-law by picking her up, taking her and her bunny to the vet, then hanging out with her and then taking her home, which means less time to myself during Avery's nap and a lot of extra drving around and maybe I'm not at the stage yet where I can help other people much while still saving energy for myself. And also it might have partly been just giving too much to Avery. Like I didn't need to stick by his side at playgroup and do all the stuff with him, he probably would've been fine if I backed off and just let him play.
I think I need to be a little more assertive with him, sometimes he's so cute I just give in to whatever he wants. Which is not necessarily the best thing. Maybe I've been spoiling him a little too much.
K, wow, that was long.
Suffice it to say I've really been reminded that being a stay-at-home-mom is *lots* of work!!!
x-posted to YM & LJ